Sometimes I’m jealous of people who I feel are more popular than me, or funnier than me, or more connected or whatever—but then I realize that I’m actually awesome all by myself. And I know this night sound super stupid and conceited and stuff, but there’s not a lot of people I would rather be than myself when it all comes down to it. Every time I think about how awesome it would be to not have the faults I have, I remember that I’m actually freaking awesome. I’m funny, and care about things, and am real with people, and can write and read okay, I’m of credible intelligence, I try to look for beauty and good, I’m always up for trying new things—I’m seriously okay. And sometimes it’s awesome just to have my own company because I’m kind of a good time. Never take your own self for granted. I thought long and hard about why other people feel they have permission to do that to me, to take me for granted, and it’s because I took myself for granted, I thought I could do all this shit to myself and still be there to pick up the pieces. But the truth is, when you hurt yourself, your self isn’t going to be there to jump back into. You have to be there for yourself. You have to know your self is only going to stick around if you give it the love and attention it deserves.
This is what loving yourself is—caring and cultivating and appreciating all that you are because you are not to be taken for granted, you are not just here to be stepped on and ridiculed and judged and saved for when you need yourself—you are so much better than that. You deserve much better than that. Want yourself. Claim yourself. You are limited, life as who you are right now is limited, enjoy yourself, and know it is a privilege to be who you are. It is a privilege to know yourself and experience yourself in the way that you do. Never take it for granted.
my life is one big “wow ok”